It all starts anew.
Since it’s the new year and I’ve been on a hiatus for quite some time now, I decided to shut this site down since no one reads it anymore and this blog is filled with too much emotions and past moments of despair and desparation. This is probably one of those “has beens” and will probably stay that way from this point on.
I, as the author, will no longer continue blogging in this blog but will do so in another. I will put up the link here for those of you who remain loyal to my blogs. Hopefully, I would finally succeed in blogging as how I did the past year (before the long Hiatus).
Now that it is 2011 – I swear by my entirety to leave all those crap out of my life from here on out.
Let the world shine on you.
Happy New Year, cyberspace!
It was but no longer is.
The Letter To SDS 0809
I’d like to say I made this but then I just gathered a few songs and jumbled them up together. I added a few parts, though! They blend in so good! Credits go to the respective songwriters.
Even like this, we came from faraway
We can’t return
To the smile from when we were young back then anymore
I love the world in which you laugh
I want to be by your side; simply that
With pains that I started to forget in my chest
Time goes by, the flow of time
Changes us, but…
Things that we lost, things that we dream of
I’ll take your hand and recall them
I’m always by your side
Because I even want to remember sad things
Please leave
A page for me on your map
On that day, you believed in
The wind that blows from the future
So soar higher tomorrow…
Time goes by, even if time passes
I’m sure that things that don’t change exist
Because I can’t reach it, because I want to find it
I’ll go search for wings of dreams
I’m by your side, forever…
You haven’t noticed yet
that we have the power to change even yesterday
I’m lonely for no reason
My tears fall down greatly
What I want to see are the people I love,
the one I see drawn in the sky – and that’s you!
Take my hand and let’s go together
Stretching out our hands, let’s catch hold of the wind
Take my hand and don’t be afraid
Holding hands, we can fly if I’m with you
You haven’t noticed yet
that the nightmare you had the other day doesn’t exist anywhere
The memories that you hold dear
are fine to have, but time flows on
What I want to say is, in brief,
to have more fun things happen with you
Look! Raise your voice and let’s start running
Becoming voiced, it’ll spill over and fall
Raise your voice while you’re laughing
Voicing it aloud, now I can say I love you
You haven’t noticed yet
that love has the power to change even the world
I swear now, by those days that will never return, I’ll overcome this sorrow
On this journey to meet you again, I won’t emerge unscathed
Even my footprints are burning out
You taught me that my future can’t be taken away, this is what makes me go on.
The pounding of my heart is what drives me forward.
If you’re smiling, if you can sing,
Then those become everything that I wish for,
The courage you gave me, the kindness you showed me…
These become the power for me to look forward and walk
If a powerful shadow falls on us, it’s because beyond that, there’s a powerful light
You can still run, you can still stand, and you’ll regain your likeness
That you’ve begun to lose
That day, your smile changed me, opening my locked heart,
and if I hold just that one thought, I will overcome anything
If your head is bowed, if you’re unable to move forward,
then protecting you becomes everything to me,
With the heart you gave me and the strength to love,
I’ll step into the darkness and change it into brilliance
My future hasn’t been taken away yet; because I know that, I can go on
I’ll look forward
I yearn for an endless dream in a guideless world…
Overlapping thoughts; heartbeats that pierce my heart
A song without hesitation quietly continues
From the far side of the distant sky, our shadows mixed together
Memories are inscribed within inevitability and caprice
We passed each other by in the whirlpool of time
Even if I rot away, I believe in your voice
I yearn for an endless dream in a guideless future
Even if I lose my light someday
The sparkling blaze in my chest that you lit
Is the fragment of hope, which will turn into my wings
The unstopping rain and the tenderly moistened moon
It’s fine even if I get hurt; a longing sways in the wind
A glance that even penetrates darkness; the depths of eyes blue and clear
There’s the engraved evidence of having overcome despair and loneliness
In the crevice of the warping era
I felt you in our exchanged bond
I follow an ephemeral road in an answerless world
You, who are unexpectedly lost and standing still
Go to the tomorrow of hope that makes your chest sparkle
I yearn for an ephemeral dream in a guideless world
I send my wishes to the shining blaze in my chest
Hey, when this town is dyed by dusk
The morning sun will shine somewhere in the world
When that flower wilts in your hands
It’ll drop a little seed, right?
If you call the soil treaded upon a road
Then is even closing your eyes love?
If this planet was flat, then we wouldn’t have met
We were running so to keep each other far away
Without relaxing our speed, now, no matter how we’re separated
Midway on the looping miracle, we’ll come face-to-face again, right?
Hey, when this town’s dusk leaves
Please take away my tears
If you call letters that start to talk a novel
Then are words that don’t reach a dream?
With the tree leaves that surfaced on the flowing river
I’ll aim for the sea, turn into clouds, and fall as rain
I’ll nurture the seed that fell near you who are far away
I’d like it if you, who are far away, will notice, but-
Because this planet continues to revolve ceaselessly
It changes the scenery outside of my slightly opened window
In the season when my beloved flower gently sprouts
At the edge of the looping miracle, we’ll come face-to-face again, right?
We’ll come face-to-face, right?
Spinning, revolving, around and around
Revolving around you
Hey, now that light came through the dusk
Morning came and evening left
The seed that you dropped before
Has now sprouted to a flower, right?
If you call pain a figure of sorrow
Then emotion is a crime?
Now that our parting brought in the light
I have forgiven what you did
But now it leads me to ask
If you would forgive me for what I did?
Until tomorrow comes, hope stays by me
The memories we shared,
The fun, the joy and the laughter
Continues to overflow this unlocked chest of mine.
Can we still be friends?
Stephen.
It was but no longer is.
NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR…
got this off from tumblr. reblog reblog…
1. Never apologize for acting on your instincts. Listening to your body – then taking action on what you hear – is the hallmark of heroic people.
2. Never apologize for all the tears you’ve cried. Crying cleanses the soul. Shoot for once a month. Even if it’s just a brief mist at a tender moment in a sad movie.
3. Never apologize for anything in your portfolio. If you feel the need to do so, it probably doesn’t belong in your portfolio in the first place.
4. Never apologize for asking for what you need. The answer to every question you DON’T ask is always no.
5. Never apologize for asking questions. When you stop asking questions, you don’t just run out of answers – you run out of hope.
6. Never apologize for asserting yourself. The word “assert” comes from the Latin asserere, which means, “to claim, maintain or affirm.” And that’s exactly what you’re entitled to: Your opinion. Your belief. Your say. Let nobody take it away from you.
7. Never apologize for being a health nut. Next time someone says, “What are you, on a diet or something?” look them straight in the eye and say, “Yeah – you got a problem with that?” Then, when they back down, you go right back to eating your tofu.
8. Never apologize for being a newbie. Everyone great chess master was once a beginner.
9. Never apologize for being early for an appointment. In the history of Corporate America, no employee has ever been fired for consistently arriving ten minutes early to every meeting.
10. Never apologize for being funny. The world is too damn serious. We need you. Seriously.
11. Never apologize for being human. Once you do, you’re no longer human – you’re a cyborg.
12. Never apologize for being passionate. Unless you’re passionate about stabbing strangers with broken Coke bottles.
13. Never apologize for being smart. That’s the ONE thing the government, the media (and every other entity that’s trying to control you) is terrified of: Smart people who take action. Be one of those people.
14. Never apologize for being the age that you are. It’s just a number. “A chicken ain’t nothing but a bird,” as my Grandpa likes to say.
15. Never apologize for breaking a rule that isn’t really a rule. Be proud of yourself for being a rule breaker. Then go break another one.
16. Never apologize for calling bullshit on someone. Especially when nobody else is the room is going to do it and this person REALLY needs to be taken to task.
17. Never apologize for demanding respect. If you’ve demonstrated that you deserve respect by giving it to others first, you’re good to go.
18. Never apologize for disagreeing. Especially if you do so respectfully. On the other hand, if you’re disagreeing for the sake of disagreeing, or because of your pathological need to be right, that’s a different story.
19. Never apologize for expressing yourself. That’s all “leadership” is: The full, free expression of your truth. Don’t say you’re sorry for that.
20. Never apologize for falling in love. Your heart’s calling the shots.
21. Never apologize for falling OUT of love. Your heart’s still calling the shots – even when you throw up an air ball.
22. Never apologize for getting something off your chest. That which you suppress will find a home in your body. And then it will trash the place.
23. Never apologize for giving it your best shot. As my Grandpa also reminds me, “You do the best you can with as many as you can.”
24. Never apologize for growing up privileged. As long as you scrap the entitlement attitude, remain grateful for everything you’ve ever been given and respect the life situation of those who are less fortunate, it’s all good.
25. Never apologize for having an overabundance of love in your life. Instead, circulate what you’ve got. Pay it forward. Share it. People need it. Especially St. Louis Rams fans. God we suck.
26. Never apologize for lack of experience. Instead, share your Learning Plan; demonstrate your dedication to lifelong learning and practice becoming the world’s expert at learning from your experiences.
27. Never apologize for lack of information. Ignorance is acceptable. Staying ignorant, however, is stupid.
28. Never apologize for liking stupid movies. Movie snobs annoy me. Some of my favorite movies are among the most ridiculous films ever made. So I love Road House. Sue me.
29. Never apologize for living your truth. Few things in the world are more important.
30. Never apologize for looking out for yourself. Self-preservation is a primary driver of human behavior. It’s how we’re wired.
31. Never apologize for loving yourself. If you do, you probably don’t love yourself as much as you thought.
32. Never apologize for making a decision from the heart. Remember: It’s not thee truth – it’s YOUR truth.
33. Never apologize for needing alone time. Solitude is soil. Solitude is medicine. And if you don’t get your fix every day, your life will suffer.
34. Never apologize for needing to use the bathroom. Yesterday a girl in my yoga class walked out of the room and actually said to the teacher, “I have to pee, I’m SO sorry.” Unbelievable.
35. Never apologize for not being there when someone called. You have a life, too. People can’t expect you to wait eagerly by the phone all hours of the day.
36. Never apologize for not embracing someone else’s agenda. Especially if that agenda robs you of your true talent.
37. Never apologize for occasional absentmindedness. Everyone’s brain farts.
but sometimes, you know, we should apologize for being ourselves, that we can’t live up to other people’s expectations. But NEVER change just because.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
It was but no longer is.
