Semestral Break.

Hayyy.. Sana lang. Sana hindi sila yung 18 views. Sana hindi. Sana.

Baka lalong lumaki lang o magkagulo pa. Pero sana maintindihan nila, na blog to. Hindi isang instrumentong ginagamit para magparinig o magpatama ng tao kundi isang labasan ng emosyon sa mga pangyayari, etc.

Epal. Sapul. XD

Two words I always hear this semestral break. Hahaha. I miss my cousins. I miss my friends. I miss everything that was.

So what did I do this sem break?

• ate blueberry cheesecakes
• ate ice cream @ icebergs
• ate barbequed stuff
• had roast
• ate fried chicken
• played sims 3
• played final fantasy x-2 (yes ngayon q lng binalak laruin 2 XD)
• prayed the rosary
• prayed for the souls
• prayed for the saints
• did some hanging out with friends online
• got scolded for not sleeping
• slept for 12 hours
• napped for 5 hours
• woke up late
• slept late
• drunk cranberry juice
• had fun
• …

Maybe it wasn’t much of a sembreak for me, though. Happy November!!

Sorry for the random post. It’s just that I don’t have the mood to right my reaction paper to “What Women Wants” movie for TLE. I haven’t done a single schoolwork this sem break and I didn’t review anything for school like quizzes and such. But then, who cares really? It’s not like you would remember all those things when you grow up, when you start working. It’s not like I’ll be calculating the velocity of a falling ball down from a building – it’s a natural reaction that people would just stare or even hardly notice it.

The best thing that I have done this semestral break was to know myself again. To have fun and to be able to express whatever is needed of expression. I have had my time now. I guess I’ll be able to wake up with a smile tomorrow or even have the mood to brighten up some other person’s day. Who knows? I don’t know if I would wake up tomorrow morning and be alive and be free. So maybe I’ll just live tomorrow without worrying about things too much. Maybe I’ll just do what it takes for me to have fun tomorrow. Maybe it’s not what people think that I should prioritize more or maybe I shouldn’t even bother caring about other things because I know that it will only ruin me.

So maybe there’s time for other people to gossip about me and this blog – but why should I care? I know it’s wrong and that they are believing the falsehood that they themselves have imposed and defined. Maybe they just have no other better thing to do. So why should I care? Well, as social beings we should. But maybe we should just keep moving forward and never look back. We should just not listen to what they say and start believing in myself. Even if they brought me down and made me lonely, sad and heartbroken – all that is over. Maybe I should just stop believing and trusting and start to have faith in my own self and be determined to live of what’s left of me. Maybe there’s still time to pick up what’s left and repair it. Maybe, just maybe things would turn out fine. We don’t know what sort of things would happen tomorrow. We don’t know anything at all. What we know is only 1% of what other people know. So maybe we should just listen to stories firsthand and never share it with others, because it changes as words are passed on. Maybe we should just listen and be overwhelmed with whatever experiences other people had gone through and be happy for them and for yourself – for having experienced those experiences firsthand and by knowing about them. Maybe it’s time to appreciate the beauty of simplicity and accept the bitter truth that are lies. Maybe we should all not care about the future and let everything be. We shouldn’t prepare ourselves for the future – because it spoils everything life has to offer.

So maybe, we could all just wake up tomorrow morning with a smile on our faces and greet the morning with joy and excitement – looking forward to what life will be giving us that day and we should appreciate it.

That maybe, you learn that you’re WORTH EVERYTHING. Because what you do in your life is about you, and not about what other people think of you and say about you. Because it’s YOUR life. They shouldn’t even give any shit about it.

But then, you shouldn’t forget that you are a social being. That you should still socialize and care for whatever is happening in their own lives and learn from it – but don’t stop yourself from doing so. Because not making any mistakes in life would simply make you a stupid human who does things ever so perfectly. But we should also put to mind that no man is ever perfect. You always step on other people at times, and you don’t please everyone. But then who cares? It’s not like they were the ones who are in your own shoes.

So maybe I would sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow.

It was but no longer is.

The YOU are different.

Another day passes. There are three countdowns I am currently following. Christmas, Graduation, and the last is a secret I won’t reveal.

Sometimes we just don’t know why we exist. We don’t know why we live but we get to choose how to live. Maybe I’m sorry. Maybe I have  faults, but hey, you do too.

She’s still NR.

These wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

-Evanescence | My Immortal

If words could ever describe how I feel, this post would be spammed.

I just don’t understand you, but don’t blame me for being me because I don’t blame you for being you. I don’t blame you for hating me, so please don’t blame me for hating you.

And YOU are just sooo insufferable. I can’t believe you.

It was but no longer is.

 

Shadow of the Day

Linkin Park

I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple.
Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

Pink cards and flowers on your window.
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren’t so simple.
Sometimes goodbye’s the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

[Guitar solo]

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you

It was but no longer is.